Devour

I had such a weird dream last night.

Basically, school had started already, and I guess it was November or so. It was pretty normal, except people from Skins went to my school. I don't even know why this keeps happening. Anyway, I had a girlfriend, and a bunch of us were hanging out at her house for Thanksgiving or something. I think I had an identity crisis or something in French class, but then I realized nothing was wrong. Also, the French room was my old English room from like 7th or 8th grade.

Then we were planning a huge party at my neighbor's house, so me and two other people decided to go in the woods. So we're exploring, and there's metal and stuff lying around, so we have to climb on top of it to get past. Eventually, we decide to head to my friend's house, not sure why, since the party was somewhere else. We walk along some highway and cut through more woods, which doesn't make sense, since it's a roundabout way of getting to my friend's house. Like, if we'd stayed on the road, we would have gotten there faster. I woke up before we got to my friend's house.

I don't even know. I was sleep deprived when I finally got to sleep this morning.

Give Me Everything You've Got

So I've decided I need to get the hell out of Jersey. Or at least this area, because it's a shithole. There's literally nothing to do here. No clubs, no places to hang out, nothing. If you don't have a car, you're fucked, because everything is miles away. There's not enough people to have any privacy, either. Everyone knows everything about you, and it's pretty irritating. The people who do live here aren't usually the type of people I'd like to be close with.

Lately I've been blaming my town for me being miserable, and I think it's at least partially true. This area is even pretty shit for longboarding, which I haven't done in at least a month. I've lost my motivation to pick up my board, and it's fucking heartbreaking. Although, me losing motivation is probably mostly personal. The lack of people is getting to me, though. It feels like I'm always stuck with the same group of people, and it's wearing me down. I'm getting sick of them and how they act, and I need a change. But there's no way to change anything, because I don't have a car, so I can't see anyone else. It's a shit position, and it's difficult to explain.

I really need to move. This shit's ridiculous.