Dead Man's Ballet

I recently decided that I hate social networking and technology. I feel like it isolated everyone more, since they're busy with their own stuff on Facebook or whatever. You don't have to go to someone's house and ask them to chill, you write on their wall or text them, which I think is really impersonal. I think it dehumanizes interactions, which bugs me. It seems like all everyone ever does is hang out, take pictures, upload on facebook, and talk about it for the next week, which I think is stupid.

Maybe I'm just old-fashioned.

Saltwater

Forgot I had a blog again. This is the sort of thing I come back to every few months, I guess.

Summer sucked, school sucks, everything sucks because I'm such an emo kid. I'm really tired of school, and it's only November. I don't care about graduating anymore, I just want out. I hate how long we've got to go to school for. Seems like bullshit to me. Why do they spread out all the shit you've got to learn over 12 years?

I've been wanting to drop out for the past year or so, but I can't. My family's big on education, unfortunately for me. I feel like I'm required to finish high school, go to college, and be really successful. But that's not what I want, not at all.

Fuck education. I'll be a fucking koala.

Nightrain

I forgot I had a blog, whoops.

I dexxed again today. I really don't remember a lot. My friend took some robogels with me. So much better than syrup. I actually didn't get nauseous or anything. My friend is just kinda retarded with taking pills is all. They got it eventually, just took 'em a bit.

I guess things are getting better; they could be a whole lot worse. Thank God it's almost June. Only 3-ish more months of school. I'm looking forward to the summer. At least then I can sleep more.


Drugs make me happier and nicer than I actually am.

Flowing

Dexxed today. It was worth it.

Here's how my day went:

Woke up
Got ready
Went to some store with a bunch of Mexicans, blacks, and Asians
Bought foreign cookies
Drove home real fast
Picked up friend
Grabbed robitussin and Benedryl
Took Benedryl
Went to get other friend
Went really deep into the woods
Drank the syrup
Left woods
Got lost trying to leave woods
Got attacked by thorns and prickers
Felt really fucking hot
Went back to friend's house
Went to other friends house farther away from my house
Got pushed by friends when walking to the house, almost fell over a lot
Still felt really hot
Arrived at friend's house
Sat in friend's living room
Moved to kitchen
Sat in friend's kitchen
Wanted chocolate milk; didn't get any
Wanted nachos
Listened to Eminem
Asked to listen to Pink Floyd
Complained when Eminem was shut off
Finished listening to Eminem
Went in backyard
Couldn't really stand up
Went back in friend's kitchen
Friend made me chocolate milk
Let friend have chocolate milk
Asked where my chocolate milk was
Went on friend's deck
Peaked on deck
Was forced to watch trippy videos
Couldn't stand up
Friends did bubble trick on me
Went back in friend's house
Felt really fucking hot
Decided I should head home before I get worse
Tried to walk home with friends
Saw kids from our school
Ignored said kids
Kept trying to walk
Crossed highway
Eventually made it to my neighborhood
Sat in parking lot
Felt really fucking cold; borrowed friend's sweatshirt
Told my friend I loved them for giving me their jacket
Talked, almost fell over
Got called to go home
Freaked the fuck out; was still tripping
Walked to house with friends
Friends made sure I didn't fall
Went to room
Talked to people online
Made stupid forum posts
Got called for dinner
Ate some food; said I ate at friend's house
Went back to room
Talked to people online again
Started coming down
Ate more
Posted this

Was a fun day. I'd do it again.